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( Supernatural 5x10 )
But what the hell is it with all my fandoms throwing ridiculous amounts of angst at me at the moment? Even the last episode of Merlin was angstyer than usual.

Let me get this straight: Jenson left for McLaren because he had a big fight with Ross. And the reason for that fight was that Ross was mad with Jenson for signing a deal with McLaren.
...
Does that qualify as a paradox?

Jenson signed a contract with McLaren.
I'm not happy about this at all. But to be honest, I'm not as shocked as I expected to be, either.
After all the rumours floating around the last few days I did see it coming. I mean, who didn't? Even though I never stopped hoping that Jenson would stay with Brawn (or Mercedes) after all, I think I stopped believing it step by step over the last few days.
But I can't stop wondering why he did it.
I'm sure it wasn't primarily the money. Jenson stayed with Brawn last year. He bought himself out of a Williams contract when he thought that Honda could give him a better future a few years earlier. Why would would he choose money over the best option now?
But somehow I can't believe that it was soley the new challenge either. A few weeks ago both, he and Ross Brawn, stated that they wanted to continue working together. Jenson went to hell and back with this team and he's shown such a remarkable loyalty. "McLaren are impressive and seemed like fun" just doesn't sound right, not as the sole reason to go there. Maybe I'm imagining things but a lot of what heard from Mercedes during the last few days sounded like they didn't really want Jenson in the team.
So what I really wanted for him, to stay with Brawn GP who just happen to belong to Mercedes now, could never happen. Because Brawn GP simply doesn't exists any more. Not only because they are called Mercedes now but because they don't feel like "my" team any more. It's like they're just gone, lost their soul, and I'm not sure I even like the new team that took their place.
So, under the circumstances, Jenson might have made the right decision. But it still feels like he made the right decision by choosing the lesser of two evils.
I hope I'm wrong. I hope that he's going to have an amazing time with McLaren and that I'll have to rethink my opinion of them. But at the moment I just can't trust them. Not after what happened with Juancho (or Alonso for that matter).
But if they can still built a race-winning car without Mercedes and if Jenson gets equal treatment I might just laugh about all my current worries in a few months time. That's some big ifs. But I know I'll follow Jenson whereever he goes and I won't give up hope because, really, Jenson's optimism is contagious.


( Supernatural 5x08 )
Edit: FYI, for some reason I don't seem to get notifications for comments on my own entries any more. So if it takes a while for me to answer to your comments (or if I don't answer at all) I probably didn't see them.

This is just too much fun not to share:
( I hear you are getting married. - Are you proposing? )
Those Red Bull drivers, they just won't leave you alone. Poor World Champion. *chuckles*
I just love my sport. On and off the track. See you next year, guys.
Edit: Williams confirms Rubens as their driver for 2010.
Goodbye, Rubens. I loved having him in the team and I wish him all the best for his future with Williams. I know, it was pretty obvious before they officially announced it but it still makes me sad to see them split up my dream team.


I think it's time to look back on those years I spent keeping my fingers crossed for Jenson and believing in him. The good times and the bad times that all ultimately led to this amazing weekend.
( 5 years of formula 1 from a fangirl's point of view )
So, Jenson Button, World Champion and Brawn GP, Constructors Champion. You really just can't say it often enough. This is a dream and a fairy tale come true.
* For everyone who doesn't speak German: "Knöpfchen" has, from the start, been our nickname for Jenson. It's based on the German translation of his last name.

and Brawn GP Constructors Champion 2009
How does that sound? Now that it's true.
I've been waiting for this for more than 5 years and now Jenson did it. And he drove a perfect race not leaving any doubts that he deserves this title.
I honestly don't know what to say. This is a dream come true. This is the perfect fairytale that started this winter when everything looked so bad.
Congratulations, Jenson! Congratulations, Brawn!